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Don’t be afraid…

I am supposed to be writing a paper right now but somehow while looking for sources for my research paper I managed to open up my blog randomly. I haven’t been on here or posted for months. Probably because I have been so busy with university or I don’t know maybe… to be completely honest maybe I just got bored of my blog.

I don’t normally do posts like this on my blog sharing my feelings but it does not really matter… I am having trouble writing my paper since I just have too many thoughts. I can’t seem to be able to focus. I know I don’t have much time left to finish it (247/1,500 words) but I just need somewhere to share how I feel. I never share my feelings with anybody, not that I don’t have anyone it is just I don’t really like to talk. I hate talking about how I feel…but at the same time bottling up my feelings is not going to help. It most definitely makes everything worse.

That is my problem I never speak. It might not seem like a big deal to some people but for me it is different. It is just hard. It is hard to talk. I am scared of it. Why? I have no idea maybe I feel like people will judge me. It is really hard to say what’s on your mind when you are too afraid to open your mouth in the first place and it just leaves you feeling horrible inside.  I feel like I have lost a lot of opportunities in my life just because I was too scared to open my mouth and I am sure I won’t be as successful and happy as I want to be if I don’t make a change. It is really hard to say what’s on your mind when you are too afraid to open your mouth in the first place.  I am just tired of this.

When I turned 20 I wrote a post listing 20 goals I have before turning 21 in January. Looking back at it I realized that I was able to achieve most of those goals. I have not completed each one completely but I am getting there. Seeing that I was able to at least achieve that much gives me hope to keep going. I feel like writing down a goal and having it somewhere where you always look really helps. This is why tonight I am going to make a new goal for myself which I am hopeful that I will 100% achieve. My goal is to not be afraid to talk. It is time I made a change and started to live my life without being afraid. Who cares what anyone thinks. I just have to be myself if I want to be happy. 🙂

If anyone actually read this far thank you for reading my thoughts. Now that my mind is clear I should go back to actually writing my paper for tomorrow!

-xoxo Bahar

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Fashion, Uncategorized

Favorite Guess purse & wallet

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It has been a while since I last posted… my last post was around March and now it’s July. Time went by so fast! During my finals week I had no time to post and after it ended I had no motivation to post anything. Now it’s summer so I have no excuses not to post haha. To be honest I really missed blogging during this time. Hopefully I will be posting more!

A while back I visited Guess and found this super cute tiny jean wallet. Even though I really loved it my friend told me I should get another style so I put it back. But after looking through the entire store, I found myself going back to the wallet because I just couldn’t get it out of my mind. I am so happy I went with what I liked and bought it because I would have 100% regretted not getting it! Always go with what YOU love!

After that, about a week ago I went to TJ Maxx to look for a small black purse but as I was looking through the purses I saw in the back that there was one that looked exactly like my wallet. I brought it out and it was a jean guess purse! Even though it wasn’t the black purse I was looking for I was still so happy because I had found a purse for my favorite wallet! I am so happy I bought the wallet that I really liked because I know I would have regretted not buying it after seeing this purse. I immediately knew I had to buy the matching purse! Who knew I would find a purse exactly like my wallet months later! 🙂

I am obsessed with both my jean wallet and purse! I have always loved bags that had a jean material but I never owned one. That’s why when I saw the wallet I just had to buy it. The wallet is small but has lots of room to store everything. Same with the purse, it is just the right size to fit everything without it being too big or too small. I also love how it is a cross body purse. All of my purses are cross body haha. I also love the pattern and the use of different jean colors. I think it makes it look so cool! But my favorite part of this bag is the material… I am OBSESSED with the jean. Love the feel of the material and the look. I think it is a great purse for summer or winter.  Love love love it haha.

Thanks for reading! I will be posting more since I am not doing much this summer haha. If you like to you can follow my blog and my Instagram for more posts! Hope you all are having a great summer. 🙂

-Xoxo Bahar

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Beauty, Uncategorized

Lancôme Face Cleanser

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I usually don’t use a face wash but this time I decided to try one after my mom recently bought one for herself from Lancôme. I love Lancôme’s makeup and this face wash looked like it would be a good one so I had to try it out! Every night before I sleep I normally just wash my face with a simple Dove bar soap and clean my eye makeup with baby shampoo. That night though I borrowed the cleanser from my mom and included it in my night routine. After I cleaned my makeup with baby shampoo and washed my face with my Dove bar soap I went ahead and put a tiny amount of the cleanser all over my face. It is a creamy texture and does slightly foam when you rub it all over your face so you don’t need a lot of product! A little goes a long way with this cleanser! After I just took a wash cloth and gently exfoliated my face and washed it all off. After using this cleanser I instantly felt like my face was very clean. My face looked and felt cleaner than the days when I didn’t use this cleanser. Not only that but my face felt really soft after! The cleanser has a really subtle kind of rose/flower smell so it is real comforting which I like especially for night time. The one I have is for dry skin. My skin type is normal but it does get dry during the winter. This product doesn’t make my face oily at all and doesn’t make it too dry. I do need to moisturize my face afterwards though! Overall I think this cleanser is amazing and never gave it back to my mom since I love it so much (she can borrow it though haha)! I actually get excited to use it every night before bed! Which cleanser do you like to use (if you do)? Thank you so much for reading!

-xoxo Bahar

Lifestyle, Uncategorized

20 Goals for when I’m 20

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I cannot believe last week was my 2oth birthday! How has time gone by so fast?! I thought for my birthday I would share 20 things I will definitely accomplish while I’m 20! I’m sure that writing down my goals somewhere (especially somewhere like my blog where I will see it everyday) will get me motivated to do them. I was inspired by Pippa Post to write this! Click the link if you would like to check her post out!

Here are 20 goals for when I’m 20!

  1. Go to the Gym. One my main goals is to start going to the gym. I have been wanting to go all of 2016 but I never had enough motivation. I will start going soon and I am super excited! For my birthday I got a super cute gym bag… which I can’t wait to use!
  2. Eat Healthier. My diet has been the worst lately which obviously isn’t good for my body. For a healthy body I need to eat healthier. Whenever I eat healthy it makes me more motivated and energized!
  3. Drink more Water. You need to drink about eight glasses of water a day. It is hard to drink that much a day but it is something I need to start doing. I thought keeping track of how many I drink in a notebook would be a great way to keep track.
  4. Grow out my Hair. At the end of 2016 I was really struggling with my hair. It wasn’t healthy at all. Before the new year I managed to get it all cut up to my shoulders. My goal for this year is to grow it out long while keeping it healthy. That means not using any heat and putting the right products in my hair.
  5. Be more Confident. I have always struggled with being confident and just loving myself. There was many things in 2016 which taught me how to love myself more. My goal is to be confident while being myself 🙂
  6. Be more Outgoing. I’m usually a quiet person until you get to know me. I do though want to try to be a bit more open with around people. I really love getting to know new people and being quiet which holds me back from doing that.
  7. Worry Less. I always worry about things way too much. Sometimes I feel like anxiety is taking over me but this year I am just ready to try my best to put the anxiety and stress aside and just enjoy life!
  8. Be more Organized. I have never been the best at being organized. It is time though that I changed that. With my busy schedule these day it is very important to stay organized so I don’t lose track of everything.
  9. No more Procrastinating. I have always been that person who leaves everything literally until the last minute. It always gives me so much stress and anxiety doing that but I keep doing it every single time (why??). My goal is to finish all my work on time so I don’t have to deal with all that stress.
  10. Less Time on Social Media. I spend too much time on social media. I definitely will do my best to control how much time I spend on it so that I can catch up with work and the people around me. I also feel like putting my phone away for a while before bed is a great way to take a break from everything and relax.
  11. Get a job. This is one of my main goals which I need to do very soon!
  12. Drive more. I have had my license for a year now and do drive but I’m not as experienced so I really want to drive a lot more this year. Hopefully this year I will have my own car (maybe after I get that job haha).
  13. Focus on my School. At the moment I am going to Uni (the reason why this post is late) and I do always focus on my work but this year I want do better.
  14. Study Abroad in the Future. One of my main goals in life is to study abroad one day. Hopefully I’ll be able to accomplish that soon 🙂
  15. Save Money. I really have to focus on saving money this year.
  16. Starting YouTube end of this Year. One of the things I really want to do is start doing YouTube. I have wanted to do YouTube for years now so hopefully I’ll be able to do it this year and not be scared.
  17. Focus on my Blog. Ever since I have started my blog I have loved posting! It has honestly been my favorite thing to do. I can’t wait to post so much this year!
  18. Smile more 🙂 I am the person who always likes to smile… but sometimes I just forget that. I want to try my best to be that person who always smiles again.
  19. Appreciate life more. The best way to do this is to just be thankful for what you have… always!
  20. Take Chances. I should never be scared to just go for it because I never know what the outcome will be if I don’t at least try. Sometimes the outcome can be life changing in a good way 🙂

Hopefully this inspired you to set some goals for yourself if you haven’t already! Thank you so much for reading!

P.S. I was planning to post this last week but since I started a new semester at Uni I didn’t have time to post. I have many posts coming soon!

-xoxo Bahar

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Why I started my blog

For a long time now I wanted to start blogging and have tried blogging a few times before but I never had time to keep everything up to date plus I didn’t even really like the content I had but now I have decided to really work on my blog and do my best to have lots of great and original content! 🙂

I’m really excited to post everything because I just have so much to share! For my blog I will have lots of lifestyle, fashion and beauty posts! I am new at this so not everything will be perfect but I still hope whoever visits my blog will be inspired. Not only am I blogging to inspire others but I am also blogging as an outlet for myself. I have a lot of thoughts and ideas trapped in my mind so why not write it all down in my own blog!

I am beyond excited for this blog (you don’t even know)! I hope you enjoy reading!